Today...

later on, it just felt wrong. I don't know why and i'm sorry if it was just me, but everything was just wrong. It's not that i'm sick of you or bored of you, i just felt like after school was out...I dunno, like we didn't click or something. Today was one of those days that makes me worry about us...and if we're going to last, and if it was meant to be. And i'm sure that didn't help make the mood better so i'm sorry for that. I guess after saturday and all the physical stuff i just really wanted to be close and gentle, but it just didn't get across i guess and that makes me worry sometimes, because while i like sex, i'll always be the more gentle lover. Kissing and being close mean something different to me. It's who i am and i worry sometimes that we won't be able to cope later in life, that i won't meet your sexual needs and you won't be soft enough...I hope we do survive, but I know there are days i just don't fulfill what you need and i feel bad those days, i really do. It was just a long day and I want you to be safe going home. Maybe we'll talk when you're back...I love you...