already?

Tonight...and i thought we weren't seeing eye to eye in a sexual sense...but really, actually, it's everything? I thought...we were better, happier. But you've been feeling like the pressure is building...I...I feel so stupid, how did i miss something that big. I mean, i guess work has been putting more stress on everything but...i just thought that was mostly sexual too. Wow...I'm so confused, I feel like everything in my life is falling apart..."we're still dating right now so I can...". When did it get to that? I'm so blind, how are we supposed to move together when you're not happy? How can I honestly make you give up what you've got going here for a crap shoot. There's so much happening and I just...I don't...I wonder if the moon was watching tonight? I think it must have been hidden behind a cloud...it's supposed to watch over me...but now...I don't even have a right to you. It's cruel of me to make you change Jeff. I don't know how to make myself stop but I won't let you waste time so unhappily.
...I love you with all my heart and I really always will, I'll always try to be a better friend...I just want you to be happy. I'll find my own way just fine, I always do.

Econ...

So I'm sitting in econ class today, and Pratt is droning on about..houses and investments and loans. And as he's telling us how making investments and renovations to a house you've bought will increase it's worth and blah blah. And do you know what I thought of? What I pictured? You, looking up at me from a table in a backyard. Smiling and sweating a touch, a little grubby...and just really happy. I couldn't help but smile at that thought. Even if it was barely more than a shack, right now, I would be so happy as long as it was ours to share and work on together. I love you...I'm so glad you're coming back soon